- People always change after high school, most people were idealistic one time or another with romantic relationships, I had them for friendships. This was based on the arrogance and narcissistic notion that I was a good judge of character and well, I deserved good friends. Man, that was a rude awakening that I'm still reeling from.
- Whatever idealstic life philosophies I've formed without empirical evidence to back up would eventually come back to bite me in the ass. I guess that's just human nature though, we fill in the blanks of what "right" should be with things we've learned. Reality is there to remind me that I don't know much of anything, and life experience might help me shed more light, but in the end, humility and wonderment should be a driving force.
- People do change, as per #1, but they sure as hell don't need my meddling to change, especially when they don't ask for it. Its a hard concept to swallow and grasp because I always feel the need to tell people what they're doing wrong in their lives when really, I should just be telling myself what I'm doing wrong in my own life. Lady D once said to me, "I do my best to focus on my own little garden and not others." She's right. Simple to say, hard to do.
- Love in its purest form isn't one for the fairy tale books. Its a complex beast that has a million nuances both good and bad. I guess that's part of the idealism thing again. Damn all those romantic comedies for screwing with me. Damn you Nora Ephron!
Someone has commented to me that my writing is too heavy and depressing. Maybe she's right, perhaps I should stop being such a stick in the mud...nah.
